I really miss those times , I maybe made a right choice ? Did I ?

Everything has became too late , what I love isn't what I want . Is there anyone here reading this blog can figure out what I mean ? Something that you really love it , but you do not want to have it ? 

Have been really stressed out these days , for the very first time that I outing with friends did not make me happier but tired instead .

When am I gonna recover from it ? How long would it takes ?